Yeah , what do I have right ? I'm not rich ,  but I felt lucky with my life . I'm not pampered / spoiled with money , at least . " Nak apa - apa , usaha lahh ! " My mom always reminded me , money doesn't come easily , and money can finish by second .But , I have a lot of wishes , I have a lot of things I wanted to have . I have lots of place I wanted to go .  Just that , ............ (sighs)


I'm not pretty . I have pimples , black spot , fugly fugly scars everywhere on my face . I have chubby face and really I'm not pretty . No , I'm telling the truth and I'm not seeking for attention . Well , as a girl , myself , I felt insecure all the time ( but of course not with you , if you get what I meant )  But , I just kept myself like this so that people accept me , with this face . Not edited , or make up or stuffs . I don't want to be like this , " Hey you're pretty , let's be friend " Then , those " not - so - good - looking - people " don't deserve to have friend ? 


Nowadays , the society is fucked up . Only the rich , the famous , the pretty and charming people deserve attention . How unfair isn't it ? Yeah this is the society we lived now . Been there . It hurts sometimes . Who even cares ?


Ignorant people . Judgemental people . Sick society . Attention-seekers everywhere . SICK . 


Maybe you don't like the way I talked, the way I tweeted or whatsoever . Yeah you can label me two-faced , ungrateful whatsoever . You should know, it's you , yourself who made me change . You always blamed me , bitching about me to your friends and yeah Aku ni siapa kan ? Aku ni Nothing , tak kaya . Takde member yang BEST macam kau ada tu . Tak cantik macam kau . Aku nak belajar dalam negara , " Malaysia ? Apa class sial , belajar luar negara lahh kan "  Yeah , aku tak mampu nak belajar luar negara , kat Malaysia  je . Yeah , aku tak masuk private college , aku belajar kerajaan je dohhh .


But this is what I promised myself  . I will buy a car , a house and travel whole world , with my own money  . Not my parent's , not a single cent .