" You're Insecure , do no what for "

Couldn't sleep , been thinking a lot and it brought me to the past .

Questioning myself , been wondering .. I grew up so fast ? Seriously , I felt like yesterday I registered for high school ! hahaha No . I finished high school already , it's 2012 already , lol I'm working already , as a part-timer at a coffee shop , a weird coffee maker hahaha , while waiting for SPM result *CRIED OUT LOUD *Am scared , scaredddddddddddddddddd !

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I hate reminiscing about the past . Hate it ! hate it ! Because all the questions attacking me :( 

1. After 11 years of school , what did I achieved ?

2. 17 years of living ( yes 17 because I'm November's baby  ) , what people think about me ? 

3. Just finished my SPM and did I do well ? What did I wrote on my papers ? zzzzz fakkk this shit .

4. Why did I grew up so fast ? :'(

and the list goes on ...

And SPM result coming out soon :(  I wanted to know my result but bit of my mind thinks that's not a good idea .

" What if I didn't get what I targeted , what if I make my parents dissapointed , what if this , what if that .... " 

 I hate being unsure , confused and ended up staying up whole night and thinking about the same thing all over again .Gahhhhhhhhhhhhh !!

Forever sighs . Forever confused .